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This week's prompt was utterly irresistible and you get me just about as authentic as you will get.
It is - the piano
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It is - the piano
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88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Frail, tiny, elderly lady leaning with her arm for support, on
the curve of the wing-shaped case of the grand piano. Gently waving her
arthritic hands in time to my tentative playing of elementary pieces from the old
primer. Her long necklaces gently swaying as she moved within confined space, teaching,
imparting and carefully cultivating.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Stumbling self-consciously through ‘Solo per cembalo’ for the
pivotal grade examination. Teenage hormones crushing confidence, fingers falter
and hit right notes at the wrong time. The corner of the eye sees the examiner
is disengaged, concurrently absorbed in picking his nose and writing,
scratching deeply the scathing remarks into the paper.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Realising in mid-teens that I could use the piano to reproduce
songs heard just a few times and without needing music. Guided by intuition and
a sizeable aural memory bank, I was able to adopt a style allowing flexibility
away from written music and enabling freedom to worship in song. It was a
crucial juncture, this acknowledgement of a God-given gift and was the spur to
re-engage with it fully and go back to piano study after a break of a couple of
years.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Challenging Nanna to a chromatic scale race from the
extremities to the middle of the piano playing all 88 keys in sequence, her
ascending, me descending. She herself weakened and recuperating after a bout of
pernicious anaemia having spent much time with her terminally sick younger
sister. Her hands where the olive, Olay drenched skin had long given up its
elasticity, still deceptively agile and we reached the 44th note in
the contest at roughly the same time. Motor skills unused in decades still
resident in her dancing digits.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
University teacher whose often sherry-seasoned breath filled
the small, sound-proofed box rooms, where we took lessons. His imagination that
paced corridors and opened doors to previously unknown pieces. Favourites were
aural impressionist paintings by Debussy and peculiarly, beautiful pieces
published after composers’ deaths, where I learned to master the art of complex
musical fractions, four against three. ‘Pedal
with your ears my dear!’ he often cried, one of the most lucid lessons he left
with me.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Now as the teacher watching over pupils who wanted to
do-it-all. Listening to the Dying Swan,
dead already within a few bars. Admiration for the boy whose fingers assuredly
flitted with a feisty lightness through the De’il
Among the Tailors, but who otherwise never uttered more than a few words.
Adult airline pilot who wanted to play Concertos
but vanished from the radar within a few lessons. Tentative pensioner,
confidence scarred, Jesus her best friend later in life, duetting together I
know Him so well, art never more appropriately mirroring life. In all the
learning, pedagogue always being educated by the apprentices.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Music is an essence that leaks out of my pores and has passed
to the next generation. We encouraged each one of our children to pursue the
study of at least one instrument and to learn to love music. As a mother at the
piano I was able to help them over the years, sitting with them while they practised, to foster the discipline and for them coming through to nurture their own
genetically inherited gifts. (This process was definitely not without tears,
tantrums and much wallowing of the artistic temperament on all sides). The
blessings have multiplied and each child is today involved with music at their
own church. I was in floods of tears the first time I heard our eldest son lead
worship (not least because he and I probably had the most arguments about
practise but also knowing that his musical gifts have been clearly blessed by
the Holy Spirit.)
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
To play the black and white keys for Your glory Father
whether alone or with a team of fellow musicians. To play, to sing your praises
so Your Holy Spirit enables every fibre of my being, heart and soul to give to
others a small portion of what you have lavished upon me. Sometimes creating
roadblocks by desiring affirmation from others to boost fragile esteem, for
them to say that You have blessed them, so in turn I can feel warm, fuzzy
goodness within. Other times feeling overlooked because others' personal
preferences are different and another musician is exalted with plaudits.
But
exactly who am I to say how your love, grace and mercy are made known to
others? Discordant and hollow piano with broken strings and rotting case is
left when Your love is absent.
88
keys 52 white and 36 black
Recently I was playing Abide
With Me on the piano to practise for a funeral, where I needed to lead the
congregation in singing as well. The hymn has the effect of invoking tears
easily, there’s just something about it that does that to me. Perhaps it is
having heard it played by Yorkshire Brass Bands (the world's best) or Emilie Sande’s soulful
performance at the Olympic opening ceremony. I figured the best thing was to
keep playing and singing it out to execute the combination of notes, giving the
right weight to rich harmonies and to make the words more habitual so as not to
be taken over by emotion.
In the repetitions God suddenly whispered at a junction with
only me in the audience, the significance of just these four words ‘ills have no weight’. It is something
that I can't explain adequately in words yet, partly because it's one of those situations you need to have lived to understand. So for now I will say it was
extremely deep and significant. God is right there in the detail and because he knows me thoroughly the whisper was only for me, in that moment.
And this is why He wanted me to keep playing on
so I could hear Him speak.
At the Piano, oftentimes a place of Holy Ground
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After Nanna’s death it seemed appropriate to invest some of
the money she bequeathed to us into a new piano. This is the instrument that has
so far moved with us three times.
It is one of my most cherished possessions, the Piano.
Thank you for linking up this week. We certainly have a love for piano in common! Also one of my most beloved possessions.
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