In 1967 we
had moved as a family from my parents centuries-long Hertfordshire roots to
Warwickshire. In the early days here we
sometimes went shopping to the big shiny spangly city which was Coventry. It had a Green Shield shop, where you handed
over your pages of accrued green gummy squared stamps for things like lawn
mowers and paddling pools, depending on who got lucky.
Coventry
boasts one of the most beautiful Cathedrals in England. In the 1960's in shameful contrast at about the furthest
reach of the city centre was a shopping area dominated by ugly concrete blocks,
called Lower Precinct. Within one of these cubes was housed the cavernous
temple called C&A, pioneering fast-fashion bazaar.
It's strange
what gets saved on the permanent hard drive of your memory. How travelling back and forth in time modifies the specifics.
With hindsight I now know that the earliest deposits of the language of music and attending sensory experiences were accumulating within my brain in the late 1960's, even though piano lessons hadn't commenced. When at university, I was in a class where we
were played excerpts from Beethoven’s Pastoral Symphony and asked to say instantly
what came into our heads. Most people
talked vaguely about rolling fields and peaceful feelings. I was rapidly transported back to 1969,
sitting cross-legged on the school hall floor in assembly with a couple of hundred other
small people in d.i.y. blue knitwear, with tendrils of disinfectant odour wafting into our tiny nostrils. And the fear, the
gut grasping fear of that formidable
headmistress.
If you were
around in 1969 you were supposed to know exactly where you were or what you
were doing at the time of that earth shattering moment when man landed on the moon (I have
no idea).
Perhaps I
never saw the momentous event on TV.
Maybe my
books seemed more interesting and important at the time.
Memory, the
old curiosity.
Back in
C&A, as a five year old, I was in one moment being led by the arm in the midst of endless
rails of clothes. Then suddenly standing alone, feeling
trapped in a maze with no escape, a scary labyrinth with giant sides of garish
garments being swished to and fro, which you might just fall into and never be
able to escape...
But, the
dress,
we had come
to get the dress for the photo
so everything was OK.
so everything was OK.
Mum chose the
style she wanted me to have in the bargain, wrinkle free wonder fabric of
the era, crimplene. (You couldn’t turn over in bed in those days between polyester
sheets and nightclothes without seeing tiny shards of static flash before your
eyes). I was given a choice between two colours, the pink flower print or the yellow sunshine motif dress. I plumped for pink florals, but it was the yellow with the symmetrical suns that was taken to the till. I know there were some tears but otherwise what happened between the changing
room and the checkout is a mystery. Still the event and its periphery have sat there in the long, twisting corridors of my mind ever
since.
A conundrum that you cannot choose what lodges in your mind.
Given the vagaries of consciousness, sometimes what do you believe?
A conundrum that you cannot choose what lodges in your mind.
Given the vagaries of consciousness, sometimes what do you believe?
